Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
...times they are a changin'... for now...
Well after my mini meltdown things have picked up immensely- funny how that works, but I can't quite bring myself to trust or enjoy it fully.
The upside is that I was offered (and I accepted) a position as part-time psychology faculty at the Art Institute of Atlanta and began last Thursday. The downside is that I climbed a bit higher and now fear the fall even more than from that other lowly ledge I was clinging to. Does that sound pathetic? I am not trying to be weak or whiny, just honest I think. My first class actually went amazingly well, we talked about research methods, schools of thought- oh and I told them Humanism was like the sweet old aunt of psychotherapy that always makes you muffins (we are keeping it real simple ;)).
I remember a yoga class, or maybe it was during my training, when we talked about emotional life being like a wave- there are ups and downs. The only given is that you will in fact continue to float up and down until, I guess, you sink to the bottom. I eluded to my own malingering in the trough of the wave in my last post and now I may have begun the long climb out and I find myself hesitant to enjoy it. Isn't that funny? To a certain extent I got what I wanted and now I am afraid to play with it- lest I scratch the paint perhaps?
What is the point of getting what I want, or succeeding, or even just staying the course throughout the low times if I am not at least going to try to push myself onto my knees and surf that damn wave for a minute?
The upside: I have a wave to surf.
The downside: I might fall.
Time to do a fluffy design post, coming next I promise.
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
...tenuous ties...
The world of employment has had tenuous ties to me for the past year and a half... Seriously, I am considering turning this blog into a unemployment chronicle- I would clearly have a broad audience!
I feel like a frustrated beaver (no double entendre intended) who continues to chew maniacally on a tree trunk never to have the pleasure of watching the tree finally crack and fall. I want to feel the success of working hard and seeing the benefits, I want to build my damn (or house, but whatever). But instead I seem to be on a hamster wheel spinning away and going nowhere (I may have mixed too many metaphors at this point since the picture in my head is now of a beaver in a hamster wheel which would certainly not work logistically).
Sean assures me that I am being negative and all the work I am putting in will help get me where I want to go. I suppose it is my first true test of faith, or fake it 'till you make it or something because I am still working at it; scouring the internet, networking at my temporary (for five months now) position and applying for anything and everything in higher education and market research that I come across. I am still working at it even though I don't believe I am getting anywhere, there are no sign posts and I cannot prove anything but here I am. It is like my own employment dark night of the soul (I have always known Mother Teresa and I had lots in common, not really but it's something to aspire to).
Anyway it has been a while since I wrote. On the bright side my pants button again, I just finished the 30 for 30 remix and I didn't buy one article of clothing for the last 30 days. I have been really busy teaching yoga after my day job and on the weekends (see I am somewhat of an asset to society) which is a-ok with me, AND I am about to go home to Pittsburgh for a visit and the marriage of one of my oldest childhood friends. In fact her wedding is at her home which I have have very fond (and rebellious) memories of and the parking is at our grade school down the street- nostalgia overload. I may wear a cotton terry dress to really bring home the point...
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